reuniting with old friends today. im scared to see B. i dont know if this is the last time i will see him before he dies, lands in jail again or if he really stays clean. i feel horrible not believing he can but its near to impossible to get off heroin. i decided i will bring photos with me, photos of the good times we all used to have and so he remembers us. besides that, my health feels a little better. im seeing a hematologist soon to figure some things out and on a personal note, im starting to move on from my ex. no time gg but i promise a good one soon. xoxo dee