Officially 2013 and I wish the pain of losing someone I loved more than anything was gone. I wish I didn't think of him or have hope that I could be with him. It has been a month and a half and although I don't cry everyday anymore, I still wish things would've worked out.This is the hardest break up of my life. I'm trying so hard to stay positive and go out and move on but it's hard. I am not religious, but I do believe in a higher power. I can say within the last couple weeks, I am back in touch with people I haven't been and meeting new friends without trying to. I believe that higher power is telling me to love life again without him.I just wish I could make quicker progress. XOXO dee