Helloo, ok im going to finally write a little bit more than I have been. i know i've been really bad and really boring. i seem to be in a confused state of mind these days. i keep wanting to live in the past when really i need to be in the present. im doing that thing where i push and avoid the good because im comfortable with the exact opposite. i feel like i need to really realize whats in front of me than behind. sometimes i wake up and i feel like im ready for love or im ready to move on and other times i feel like im lost in a mess of my broken heart from someone i truly loved.